let your mind wonder.

I really wonder if you ever think of me, and i wonder if you do, what you might think of.
How could you say those things to someone you supposedly cared about?
you're low, and you're dirt.
It angers me that you take up some of my time once and awhile, because you shouldn't be. 
I shouldn't be wasting one second of my time on you, i hate you, and hates a strong word, but i mean it.
You are the only person i hate, and for that reason it makes me hate you more because no one has ever gone that low, repeatedly.
I tried to help you with everything, i tried so hard for you. I was constantly worried about you, but all the things you told me were just blow up more than they were, you're nothing but a liar. You're an overly emo, dirty, piece of shit.
Love. right. you're a cheater.
You lie about the people you love,
you lied to me about her, you told me allll these horrible things about HER. Yet you go back to her, i dont understand. 
How you can say these things behind someones back and pretend that you never said them.
I dont even care that your back with her, it doesn't anger me.
What angers me is that you will lie, about anything and everything to make people feel sorry for you, but they shouldnt because you bring it all on yourself.
That wasn't love now that i look back on it, it was nothing.
You can go rott, and i will not care, thats how much you hurt me.

HAYYYYYYYYY.
meh do you people get really scared on friday the 13th? i dont believe in any of that junk but maybe because nothing has happened to me on that day.
soooooo the guy im crushing on is older than me and i swore to myself i wouldnt do the older boyfriend thing again, like 3+ years.
butttttt hes so cute, he so far gives me the im a sweetie vibe, but my friend kind of gives me a wierd look everytime she catches me mentioning him. whateverrrrrrr.
ahahha my teacher called me a dirty slut today it was halarious
Q: OKAY WHOAAAAA HE CALLED YOU A DIRTY SLUT?
A: sooo funnnnnnnny story, my group was acting out a scene from a different version of cinderella where the prince calls her a dirty slut. and i was playing cinderella. and hes like so whoes playing the dirty slut as a joke. and not thinking i hurry up and raised my hand in excitment saying ME.
everyone laughed.
ahahah then i caught on. i got a goood laugh from it.

thats whats going on in my head todayyyyyyy OH ! no, we played with banjo's (whats wrong with me why did i say banjo) African Drums, im not sure if they have a different name, im slow today haha, they were sooooooooooooooooo fun! 

yeah thats it for today, or right now.

yayayayay. schoool was cancelled today.

I was planning on teaching myself electric feel on my keyboard that i forgot i had today, but i never got around to it. Kind of sad about that lol.

Q: so what did you get done on this freeeeee day?
A:  straight out nothing.
I did start up this whole live journal thing, im very eager to get on with it. : )

I also have been thinking about this new guy probably more than i should. I probably dont know enough about him, but its definitly a crush.  I wish i were a mind reader so i knew what he thought.
anyways. Valentines is creeping its way closer, and im not a hater of the holiday, I love valentines day. Just not when im single.
everywhere you look people are in loveee and holding hands, PROPS TO YOU GUYS, but ! it saddens me. I think ill just watch some scary movies. Oh, and ive also found someone on youtube who fuels me towards being a makeup artist more than i already am.
Petrilude(www.youtube.com/petrilude) is his you-tube user-name, hes so talented. Check him out and subscribe!
so i guess my day wasn't totalllllllly a buzz killer.

so as you may know from the title, this is my first blog.
Q: whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy blog?
A: I really don't know, but i had a sudden drive for one.
Q: whaaaaat are you gonna blog about?
A: That's something i'm still trying to figure out, life it self? such as interests of mine, and sharing links, videos, thoughts on things. everything. blah di daaaaa di daa.
so check back, im pretty hyped up to start.